Today, I ran to work. I worked on invites for our Life Groups. I sent emails that answered questions about the Life Groups. I ran Kennedy to a dentist appointment and then had to pretty much sit on her to get her to stay in the seat. I am pretty positive that I caused my kid to have anxiety for the dentist for years to come.
And tonight for the first time in a really long time, I just sat. I took deep breaths. And I enjoyed just about an hour of sitting with God. I sipped hot tea. The kids were in bed. My hubby was in bed. It was just me and Jesus.
This past Sunday, I preached about how Martha in Luke 10:38-42 was fussing to the Lord becuase her sister, Mary, wasn't helping her. Instead, Mary was at Jesus' feet listening to his teaching. I preached about it because how many times do we do everything else but sit and listen to his teaching. But here I find myself, seeing this lesson from a different angle. I often sit at Jesus' feet and receive the lessons but very few times (sadly), I don't find myself just sitting with Him. Just sitting with Him. Not coming to Him so I can learn and write a report, blog, sermon... but simply sit with Him.
But tonight for an hour, I got a blissful hour of just sitting with my Lord. No expectations, no inspiration, no tasks given.... just peace. It felt like a long hug. One that said, take a moment to just stop. To just smell the cold winter air. To hear the wind blowing through the Evergreens. To watch the waves of the water behind our house move.
Tonight, I heard the Holy Spirit sing something to me that I needed to hear. He wasn't asking me to do anything. He wasn't getting me ready for the next task, the next witness, the next whatever. He simply was taking time to hold me. "Why don't I do this more often", I thought and then right as I thought it... our 10 month old son woke up and was crying in his crib and it hit me that I don't often have moments of silence. I am not in a stage of my life where solitude with God comes easy. But I have decided to take every opprotunity I can to seek it more often.
How do you find moments of solitude? What's your secret! Let me know by leaving it in the comments, I would love suggestions!
"Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the Gospel of Christ" (Phil 1:27).